Pour me a life

Some days I just get caught up with so much shit in my head that I’m nearly wearing my Nikes out over it. People who meet me, and those that have known me will often say, Christ you need to write a book.  A book is out of the question at present, due to not having a fucking clue how to do that, so a blog seems like a positively excellent idea. Now I’m obviously over 30, seen as my personal research into alcoholism started when “I’ve been to paradise but I’ve never been to me” was released, so I really don’t know how anyone finds my blog. To me, if one person who is suffering from the fucked up world of addiction finds this and reads it, Ill sleep well.

Now you can read all about me, well the part I’ve made public on my website and in  Stuff / New Zealand Herald Articles a few years ago, in the early days of when my Life over Alcohol had started to form. But in short, I call myself a Gratefully Retired Connoisseur of Fine Wines. Believe me I piss the shit out of some people when I say that in certain groups, so be it, my life seems to have lost its filter, most of the time.

I chose life over Alcohol early in 2014, 12 years after it started turning my, and my peoples world upside down.

In short, I am a professional women, who had the lot, lost the lot, then got an even better lot back.  At the height of my drinking career, and as I like to call it achieving my PHD in Alcoholism, I was drinking 6 bottles of wine a day. Vomiting all the time, Id lost my hair, my looks, my home, my car, my appetite (an egg white a day), every living thing that mattered to me, and lastly, Id completely lost the bones of me and almost my life.  I didn’t have a clue how I got there, but now I do. We are all very different people, from different walks of life, however what I like to call the template for addiction is all the same. We all end up in the same place in the end.

To me, life on the other side of addiction, is well, life. Its a good world to live in, however it takes connection to get there and because of this and where I’ve crawled from, I work with helping others reach that other side. One person at a time. However sometimes that just dosnt seem enough. I can post blurbs on Facebook, talk my mouth off on the phone, but there is so much more that I can put into words and allow you all to ponder over, glass of either kind, whatever in your hand, or not, its neither here nor there to me. Id just like people to stop, read and think,  about what if, or maybe I to, can take a chance on life over addiction.

I promise you these blogs will not be fluffy, due to the fact I bloody hate fluff, it will be straight to the heart of what its like to live in that world (for those standing by their person), and how the fuck you can leave it.

Whether its you, or its yours, lets explore together, the possibility of Life verus Addiction.

Out beyond the ideas of right doing and wrong doing, there is a field,

Ill meet you there.

Denise